21 July 2012

Looking, for which answers I am unsure...

Do you ever feel like just escaping? I wake up every morning for work feeling like shit. I feel like shit at shit work with shit bosses. I come in, play games/ watch tv and films for some time/ listen to music. One form of escapism, and I can't help but think it's far from ideal. Then I don't feel like going to sleep because I anticipate the next morning, so I put that off as long as I can. Then I do go to sleep, wake up, and the cycle begins again.

I've been thinking about this a lot, and I would like to know if there is there any form of meditation that can slow down our perception of time (or make our mind be outside of it?) and increase the levels which our thoughts can reach, essentially our clarity?



I browse the internet for long durations of time, have been for many years now, but never really get close to a normal discussion, close understanding of my fellow human beings, closer understanding of the universe, none of the things I really want. I spend hours daily playing online games, not because I enjoy them, but because they're sufficient forms of escapism. There is no genuine, real social company on these games, or at many of the social/ communication mediums online. Why is it in 2012 the internet hasn't come up with a sophisticated social medium? Just endless IRC chatrooms where people never talk, endless forums with no one ever really connecting, many image boards and games where so many people don't know any other...







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I don't at all know what answers I'm really looking for. If anyone has them, please, please, comment. Talk about your life, what you want, what you don't want, what you think about society, what you think about the universe, whatever. Anything. I just need some kind of discussion to keep myself sane.




A lot of people are good at heart. I hold the belief that people are blinded daily by petty things and their own or other peoples pettiness... As well as that, by chemicals, hormones, by what society is telling them to be or not be, believe or not believe, by their peers, by their family, by their environment... Humanity ascends beyond all of these things and it's the one thing every human being has in common, but shows so little of. That sounds very pretentious, but it's true. We're the one big collective, yet so many of us are alone, through our own feelings and perceptions or through other factors. Many of us seek answers in philosophy, in space, time, and the universe, in science, and never come any closer to them. Others look in religion and have what I think to be a comforting delusion of answers. Others gave up long ago and just escape into the mindlessness of daily life and the cogs turning in the big machine that is society, or find other ways to escape. Everyone is so apathetic.

From Charlie Chaplin's 'Modern Times'.


From Pink Floyd's 'The Wall'.